A Blessing and a Lesson

I was in love but he was just in the moment
I’m heartbroken because I was hard headed and didn’t listen to what mama told me
All I really wanted was someone to love and to hold me
Give me attention so I could free my mind of worrying
I knew he was being selfish but so was I
Trying to force him to be something I knew he wasn’t deep inside
I chose to close my eyes to The Truth and live in a lie
Now I’m back to the drawing board
Back to where I should have stayed in Your presence Lord
I stepped away to please my flesh because this spiritual connection with my Creator wasn’t enough
The path I was on seemed to be just right
Getting back to You won’t be that rough
The entire time I ran from you into another mans arms
You stood there calling me arms open wide waiting once again to hold me tight
To me if I loved him enough eventually he would grow to love me
I had to be chin checked in order for me to see the reality
I still took the detour even though the sign said dead end
I took advantage of a situation instead of just being a friend
After all this time we’ve never ended on a bad page
But I guess this is the conclusion of our story
I fell in love with him from a young age
I had the opportunity to love him with my all and for that I give You glory
There is a lesson to be learned so I’m not salty
You continue to show me that no matter how smart I think I am compared to You my logic is faulty
This pain is only temporary and not much of anything compared to the pain You felt when You died for me
You did all of that for me to show me I would never be alone that no matter who walked away from me You would replace them 100 fold
A lesson to be learned I don’t regret it but I’ll surely never forget it
I walked away from the ones who loved me for the one I loved who clearly didn’t love me
Hurt people hurt people so I’m asking You to heal him so that the next one won’t have to feel this
This may or may not be the completion of our journey but I pray and thank You for giving me another day
I won’t make empty promises but in this moment You have my full attention
My sins are gone, forgotten, and forgiven to no longer be mentioned
Thank You in advance for what You have in store for us
Help us get closer to You than we’ve ever been
Help us not to regret anything even the blatant sin
I think if I got the chance to redo it I would do it all over again
I got the chance to love him as more than just a friend
To show him he’s a king and that he deserves more
That although he may not know how to love me or himself
You are there all the time and You love us more than life itself



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One response to “A Blessing and a Lesson

  1. This is good therapy after a relationship is “complete”. Keep writing, praying, talking about the experience, it’ll not only help you heal, but others that can relate as well.
    I love you little Cuzzo & any man that has the opportunity to love & honor you is a lucky, blessed, guy. Your truly a catch!!! Keep up the good work & continue to walk in truth. “It’s not easy but it’s necessary”. #loveislove

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